Music: Bloc Party - Ares - Intimacy
Mood: Retrograde
Mood: Retrograde
I need a win, badly.
Music: The Doves - There Goes The Fear
Mood: Apathetic
http://kunalanand.com/morethanfine/
Scary good- and I'm not saying this because he's my brother. Do yourself a favor, check out the link above, and if you aren't blown away by what's behind the curtain, please feel free to lambaste me with derogatory comments.
Mood: Apathetic
http://kunalanand.com/morethanfine/
Scary good- and I'm not saying this because he's my brother. Do yourself a favor, check out the link above, and if you aren't blown away by what's behind the curtain, please feel free to lambaste me with derogatory comments.
Music: Adele - Hometown Glory
Mood: Vindicated
Mood: Vindicated
I'm writing this to put to bed a lot of things that have transpired over the course of a twenty-two year existence. Friendships, mistakes, romances, regrets. All of it in a nutshell once and for all.
For the better part of the last six years, I've gone out of my way to avoid examining what makes me tick. Seems its been a lot easier than you would imagine to ignore and repress than to explore the reality within. Rather than delve into any outstanding fears, I've preferred the chemical recourse for what seems like an eternity. Instead of dealing with major life issues as they arrive, I've medicated with toxic relationships. All told, I've been doing a fabulous job of living someone else's life.
But I know myself- sort of. I know that I engage in these acts of avoidance not because I fear the outcome. I already know what the results will be/are. No, I keep pushing things into the distance because I've found solace in the distance. Its safe and casual on an island. I'd prefer to keep everything at bay rather than experience anything tangible. There's nothing sexy about what you already have. Life seems more mysterious, and ultimately malleable, when its far off the coast.
So what am I getting at? The masterful web of entangled emotions that punctuate my present dismay. I have been unfortunate to let too many bad friendships fester for too long. I've had my fair share of regrettable trysts. I've been a bad boy several times over. But I've realized, over the course of introspection, that I've been lacking the requisite 'clean-break' that's needed to move forward. Even though I've stopped calling people, stopped returning emails, and avoided any/all social situations, I'm still in limbo. So this is my axe to the arm, per-say.
To everyone that I do not speak to from this day forward, goodbye and good luck. I'm more than willing to marvel at your abilities from afar. But I cannot, and will not, continue doing this dance with any of you. In no way am I going about this in a politically correct fashion. But I don't have the patience to craft multiple emails. So read this, for what its worth- and realize that I just cannot afford to have any of you or your circumstances plaguing my life any further. I've been tortured by memories from my past for too long. Specific relationships have kept me from growing-up, consistently reducing me to the shadow I used to inhabit. I'm done.
So this is my oath, to forge a new path, without the burden of instability or the bitter resentment of jealous 'friends' holding me down. A new approach to life- to live in bliss without remorse. Calling it a rebirth is too dramatic. I'll stick with the moving forward angle. Except I've no intention of checking the rear-view mirror. Adios to a lot of you. See you when I see you.
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Music: Metallica - The Unforgiven III - Death Magnetic
Mood: Calm
Mood: Calm
I'm digging Sons of Anarchy, True Blood, Dexter, and The Shield so far. Entourage starts tomorrow- can't wait for that.
Hope everyone is having a great weekend thus far.
This is How We Roll in the +91
1 Comments Published by Devin on Thursday, September 04, 2008 at 3:26 PM.
An Indian Reality Show where the host and participant decided to have a go at one another.
Music: Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal
Mood: Sinus-y
"Democracy demands that the religiously-motivated translate their concerns into universal rather than religion-specific values. What do I mean by this? It means that their proposals must be subject to argument, and amenable to reason. Now I may be opposed to abortion for religious reasons, to take one example, but if I seek to pass a law banning the practice, I can't simply point to the teachings of my church or evoke God's will. I have to explain why abortion violates some principle that is accessible to people of all faiths, including those with no faith at all. Now this is going to be difficult for some who believe in the inerrancy of the Bible, as many evangelicals do; but in a pluralistic society we have no choice - politics depends on our ability to persuade each other of commonalities based on a common reality. It involves compromise... The best we can do is act in accordance with those things that we all see, and we all hear."
-Barack Obama
Mood: Sinus-y
"Democracy demands that the religiously-motivated translate their concerns into universal rather than religion-specific values. What do I mean by this? It means that their proposals must be subject to argument, and amenable to reason. Now I may be opposed to abortion for religious reasons, to take one example, but if I seek to pass a law banning the practice, I can't simply point to the teachings of my church or evoke God's will. I have to explain why abortion violates some principle that is accessible to people of all faiths, including those with no faith at all. Now this is going to be difficult for some who believe in the inerrancy of the Bible, as many evangelicals do; but in a pluralistic society we have no choice - politics depends on our ability to persuade each other of commonalities based on a common reality. It involves compromise... The best we can do is act in accordance with those things that we all see, and we all hear."
-Barack Obama
Music: Kanye West - Everything I Am
Mood: Reflective
Mood: Reflective
If you sneeze twice in succession around my parents, you'll be interrogated and ultimately diagnosed with either SARS or some strain of the African Flu.
There is an increasingly disturbing amount of underage cleavage roaming the streets of Calabasas. Be warned.
Fanboys should under no circumstance be allowed to vote on IMDB and fuck with the gentle equilibrium that once was Shawshank Redemption and The Godfather.
For the record, Shawshank might be the most overrated movie in the history of movie-dom. There was nothing monumental or spectacular about it- everything was average at best. But people are so afraid to go against the grain and say anything negative about.
I sort of wish John Mayer would shut the fuck up.
Los Angeles needs a subway. I'm frustrated with driving. Even if the commute time is equivalent, I'd much prefer standing next to sweaty people in a tram-car then enjoy the air-conditioned bliss of my vehicle. Fuck.
CNN needs to step their journalism game up. They're slacking.
I literally just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico.
Team USA is going to destroy the competition in Beijing this year. Book it.
Brunettes with long legs make me yearn for afternoons in Boston once more.
Who gives a fuck about an Oxford Comma?
